Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Please help me I don't know the way

I have Andrew Peterson's "Holy is the Lord" (Serve Hymn) in my head. It is resonating with me. Actually, it is echoing through my soul, except that the echoes aren't getting fainter, they're getting stronger. "Holy is the Lord, Holy is the Lord and the Lord I will obey. Please help me I don't know the way."

It's not so much that I haven't heard what I should do to live my life right. I have studied the Bible in depth and worn the pages out. I've listened to countless Christian messages and songs. But I look back on my life and my decisions and so often I see some essential part missing.  I know I need God's word, I need to trust in Jesus. In addition to all that, I need to walk with God daily.  I don't know how to do that. It's not something that can be taught to a person.

I think that prayer is lovely, "help me I don't know the way". It's saying to God that I need him to help me in my relationship with him. It's like a man saying to his wife, "I want to get to know you more - help me". If the woman will not allow the man to come more into her life,  to lead him to get to know her more with personal information and insights and open arms, then any words from others that might know the woman won't do what only the woman can do.  It can help, but it won't bring that intimacy that only the one in the relationship can offer.

But, even now, I feel like I've lost something by trying to explain it. The Lord is Holy - high above us. Our lives were created by him and for him. He is all good. Why is it that I don't know the way? Is it perhaps because I've made too many decisions based on selfishness and pride. I am sure that is a large part of it. Those decisions have been based on such shallowness.  Sigh.

Holy is the Lord. And the Lord I will obey. Please help me I don't know the way.